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Testimony:I love serving the Lord. I give my heart to the Lord, well my all to the Lord February 1999. And I didn't regret it one bit. And don't matter what I am going through I am not going to give up on the Lord. Because he says in his Word that he would never leave us nor forsake us. God bless
TestimonyI love my GOD!!!! nothing in the entire world compares to Him!!!The day I got saved is the day I realized how much I loved the lord and evey day till I DIE I will serve you!!Because you served me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BELIEVE IN THE LORD YOUR GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TestimonyThere is a Fire burning, and you can run from it or to it. The fire has started from Jesus' footsteps and is spreading. My mission for Jesus Christ is to testify about His power and Love. And to bring others to him. Visit WWW.fireontheprairie.org and find out is where Jesus visits every week. Miracles are being given and changed lives are occurring. Praise God. He can Bless you in many ways.
TestimonyAs a young child I attended a Catholic Church. I always knew Jesus Christ was someone special, but I never really knew why. Well, as time went on I kind of left the Church scene, because I didn't know what to think, because I knew I was a sinner so I thought there was no way I could get to heaven, just because of the person I was. I guess you could say I was frustrated with the Lord. I had all these questions, but no answers. So I thought to myself maybe Church is really not my thing, so I left it behind. I reached high school searching for something. I really didn't know what it was, but I knew I wasn't happy. So I thought the party scene would make me happy. Wrong, that only made me feel worse. Then I thought maybe the popularity I got from football would make me happy. Wrong again. I was searching for happiness in all the wrong ways. I would always say to myself, I have to change and become a better person. But what I didn't know at the time was that I could't change myself, only the Lord could do that. So I started attending The Gospel Hall which was only a street down from my house. I met a couple of Christian people, and I knew there was something different about them. It kind of made me curious, to know why they had so much peace and happiness in there hearts. I struggled very hard to be saved I guess you could say. I thought I had to do something. The day I was saved by the Lord was when I realized the Lord Jesus Christ died for me on the Cross. There was nothing I could do but accept him as my Savior. I realized I couldn't save myself. When I was saved by the Lord, God sent His only Son on the Cross to die for me, because He knew I couldn't get there on my own work. My life has never been the same since, there's meaning to my life now. Giving my life to him isn't even a down payment for what he has done for me. Through all the hard times I went through and the struggle I had to find happiness the Lord never gave up on me. I truly Love him for that. Being a Christian I learn something new everytime I open my Bible. The Lord has helped me realize that surrendurring my life to Him has to be an everyday thing. He has also helped me find new Christian friends on Findlay's campus to help strenghten me. I owe all my love, all my heart, all my everthing to Him!!!!
Testimonyi became a christian about a year and a half ago.i fought against my spirit 4 so long i was not living my life rather satans.god alwayz provided me with loving christian freinds throught my journey after leaving home which where great support.im 23 years old. firstly its amazing how much grip satan has here on earth, really seeing this now and people are fine with living in thier comfort zones which the evil one wants,but he did not count on j.c's trick up is sleave,his death 4 us on the cross the ultamate moment in HISstory. out of my babbling comes this,love the lord with all your heart,soul,mind and live by faith and we will shine to ourselves,family and those who are not christians.i am australian and lets just say big things r happening in this country and god has a grip on it all. and to all of u who from afar i pray that all is well and that u keep on showing the people wat jesus is made of. WE ARE THE CHURCH.GIG-GOD IS GOOD-FFT4C-FREAKS FERRILS AND TRIPPERS 4 CHRIST-yeah baby peace if u have an urge to write to me then dont hold back-hope u do dave
TestimonyFirst giving honor and praises to my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. He is my reason for living. I thank the Lord for my salvation, and all that he does for me, each and ever day that he give me breath. He is more than life to me, He lifted me up out of the murk and mire, and set my soul on fire. My only desire is to always and forever be in the will of God. I am a young adult, and sometimes find it hard, to walk this christian journey, but I thank God, for the strength and determination that he gives me. He is an awesome God, who has never failed me yet. I just pray that I will be able to be an example to other youths, as they travel this road, that can sometimes seem hard to bear. But, I thank God, in the fact that he will never put more on me than I can bear. I Love The Lord, with all of my heart, and try to live each day to his divine plan. I know that God has brought me a long way, and I am not what I want to be yet, but I than God that I am not what I used to be. God hears my cries, and understands my heart. He will never leave me nor forsake me. I am stuggling with a spiritually weak friend at the moment and ask all that read this to not only pray for her, but for me that I may be able to help her get back on the path God has ordained for her life. I pray that he take away all the temptations of flesh, and help her to see that: James 1:12--Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him." I just pray that she turn from fornication, and turn to God, cause all things are possible through him. I am a proud virgin by choice, and God has allowed me to see that I don't have to ACCEPT sin in my life. I have been in situations where I have been tempted many times, but I thank God, that Satan has yet to win this battle, I turned ti all over to the Lord. I hope that all I have said, has touched someone's life, and helped them to see that God is Real, and he is always there for us, but we must first listen, and obey his will, and flee from sin. For a sinner will not enter into his kingdom, that he has prepared for his saints. There are 3 things sin will do: 1) IT WILL TAKE YOU FURTHER, THAN YOU WANTED OR INTENDED TO GO, 2) IT WILL KEEP YOU LONGER THAN YOU WANTED TO STAY, and 3) IT WILL COST YOU MORE THAN YOU WANTED OR ARE WILLING TO PAY. PRAISE THE LORD, for greater is he that is in me, than he that is in the world. In the name of the father, the son, and the holy ghost. Amen:-)
TestimonyAnd you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins; Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of the world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience: Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others. But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, Even when we were dead in sins hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved:) --Ephesians 2:1 I was raised in a Lutheren church but never knew Jesus. I started using drugs at a very young age, and by the age of 19 I was a full blown drug addict I smoked pot, used cocaine and speed reguarly. I had also experimented with LSD, X-tecy, along with many other drugs. My favorite was the speed though. I became seriously dependant on it. I started using it interviniously. I also drank heavily and frequented the night clubs alot. As a matter of fact that is where I met my wife. She didn't know that I was shooting up but she would do the drugs with me (snorting). We partied alot the first few years of our marriage and we were "num"(lack of a better word). I don't think we were very then, as a matter of a fact> I know we weren't happy. We have two daughters and I wasn't being a very good father. Basically our marriage was falling apart. I was hidding alot from her and the kids, with the drugs and all. Our lives where misrible, and if it wasn't for the kids we probally would have split up. One night though, I was up late on the computer, doing a search on" unexplained phenomena "(how irronic) and that took me to a list of web pages then I clicked on "ghosts and spirits" that took me to a list of web pages also, then I clicked on "devil"(I don't know where I was heading with this I was just bored) this also took me to a list of web pages, the very first of which said "MY TESTIMONY" I clicked on this with an unexplained curiousity and was drawn to it. I could not stop reading it. I came to a part that said "God does not desire that anyone should go to hell, but He will not let you into heaven without repentance and faith in Jesus." when I read this I was so convicted. For the first time in my life, I could see my sin and that I was on my way to a sinners hell.( I allways thought that If I was a good person and did "good things" that God surely would not send me to hell. Boy was I wrong.) Right there I asked Jesus to come into my heart and to be Lord of my life and He did. THANK YOU JESUS FOR SAVING A SINNER LIKE ME THANK YOU JESUS. The next week my wife and I prayed every night on our knees that Jesus would change our lives and He has so much. We through all of our old music and movies out, and joined a bible believing church. We were baptised together, two months later in a Wednesday night service. I have been drug free for two and a half years now. I OWE IT ALL TO MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. I HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED WITH CHRIST AND IT IS NO LONGER I THAT LIVES BUT CHRIST LIVES IN ME, AND THE LIVE I LIVE IN THE FLESH I LIVE BY FAITH IN THE SON OF GOD, WHO LOVED ME AND GAVE HIMSELF UP FOR ME. I DO NOT NULIFY THE GRACE OF GOD, FOR IF RIGHTEOUSNESS COMES THROUGH THE LAW, THEN CHRIST DIED NEEDLESSLY. GAL. 2:20-21
TestimonyI have been saved for two years now. I just want to thank God for making me live to see many days. He has been a good help in the time of trouble. The Lord is my refuge and strength and very good help in trouble. I put all my trust in God, because I personally don't depend on man. I want to move on forward and continue to serve my God. He has delievered me from my problems and my trials. Please pray for me and I will do the same for you. GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TestimonyMAY 31, 1999, MY SON WAS BURNED ON WITH FIRST AND SECOND DEGREE BURNS. AS WE WENT THRU THE SCRUBBINGS AND THE PAIN THAT WE HAD TO PUT HIM THRU, WE THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS THE WORST THING WE HAD EVER BEEN THRU. ONE MONTH LATER OUR SON HAD TO HAVE SURGERY. WHEN HE FINALLY GOT BETTER, WE WERE SO HAPPY THAT THOSE FEW HORRIBLE MONTHS WERE OVER. JUST A COUPLE OF WEEKS AFTER THAT, MY HUSBAND HAD PASSED OUT IN CHURCH. HE WAS HAVING SIEZURE LIKE SYMPTOMS. TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST WITH YOU, HE LOOKED LIKE HE WAS DYING. AFTER FIVE DAYS IN THE HOSPITAL, WE DISCOVERED THAT HE HAD BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH NEAURALLY MEDIATED SYNCOPE. THIS HAD THE IMPACT OF HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO RETURN TO HIS JOB AS A TRUCK DRIVER. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN FILLED WITH ALL KINDS OF OTHER TRIALS. HOWEVER THE NIGHT THAT WE WERE TOLD THAT WE HAD NO WAY OF SUPPORTING OUR TWO CHILDREN, I HIT MY KNEES IN THE BATHROOM OF THE HOSPITAL. FROM THAT DAY FOURTH EVEN WHEN MY FAITH HAS WAIVERED THE LORD JESUS HAS NOT LET GO OF ME. MY LIFE HAS BEEN BLESSED BECAUSE OF ALL THE EVENTS OF THE LAST YEAR. HE GIVES YOU THE STRENGTH TO GET THRU WHAT EVER LIFE BRINGS YOUR WAY. WHEN I WENT TO HIM THAT NIGHT SCARED AND HONESTLY THE SADDEST I HAD EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE, HE TOOK ME AND HAS CARRIED ME THRU THIS YEAR.
TestimonyGod is so good. when i was in high school, i used to be doing my own thang-i got pimped by the devil basically.i was lost..i knew of God and knew about him, but i did not KNOW him...i came to college in the fall of 1998 and everything that happened was a set-up. i mean the people i met, down to the churh someone invited me to..i don't know exactly when i surrendered to the Lord because it was a process, but what i do know is that He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I mean i have this burning fire within me-this precious treasure inthis earthen vessel. I am so blessed and have a REAL intimate relationship with God..I have cometo know him as my best friend as well as the love of my life..somebody told me once that i act like i am in love with God..well, i am and i hope to continue on as long as i live.
TestimonyThis is to who ever was obediant to open this site. I am a born again believer, was baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit when I was 4 yrs. old. I came up to the computer this evening to check my e-mail, and the words came into my spirit, God's Vision...soo I felt led to go to search and to see if there was any such web site. To my surprise I found you. I just want to encourage you...whomever you are. To be obediant to the cause and the purpose that God has called you unto. Don't be distracted, or let the enemy detour you from the path that God's has set for you to take. Be strong in his might, and continue on with joy. Father today I pray that this ministry will be a tool in your hand, that will bring glory unto your name. May your anointing flood the internet in the days to come. May your hand of protection be upon the families and those associated with this work. Give them your vision daily, and let your words you speak threw them be filled with life,love, deliverance, and peace. Teach them how to be more effective, and grant them an added measure of faith today. In Jesus Name Amen!!! God Bless You With His SHALOM!!!
TestimonyThis is my first time telling a testimony,so Father be with me. well for starters I am 25 years old. I am married with 4 kids. and every day that when I wake up Ialways thank the lord for the blessing he had giving me when he gave me my famliy. If is was not for THE HEAVENLY FATHER I my self would not be here right now. You see I grow up real fast I had my first child when I was 16 years old. I was in to drugs real bad ,my ideal wieght was supouse to be 125lbs. but at the age of 17 I was weithting about98lbs strung out. Inever did graduate from high school.By the time I turned 22 I already had 4 kids. it wasnt untill I turned 25 when I relized that life was headed no where and had to do something, but what. I knew all about GOD,my father is a pastor. but i did understand the love that he had for me and how he could set me free. When I finally accepted christ into my life I got clean up. Iam making life better for my kids so for those of you that are lost got found quick cause the love that you are looking for is in the Lord Jesus Christ. May God continue to bless you all. I love you . Your sister in Christ: Tamicka Self
TestimonyI HAVE BEEN FASTING IN PRAYING FOR THREE DAYS, FOR GOD TO CONTINUE TO BLESS ME AND BRING PEACE ON MY JOB I WAS PRAYING FOR MY CO-WORKERS AND I PRAY EVERYDAY ON MY LUNCH HOUR BUT WHEN I WENT IN TO THE LITTLE ROOM TO PRAY THE HOLY SPIRIT TOLD ME TO LISTEN AND THE PEACE I WAS SEARCHING FOR WAS ALREADY WITHIN. I KEPT TELLING GOD I'M LOOKING FOR THE TRUTH. AND THE LORD SPOKE TO ME AND SAID I AM THE TRUTH. SO I JUST WANTED TO TELL SOMEONE WHO IS EXPERIENCING PROBLEMS ON THE JOB OR IN THEIR PERSONAL LIFE GOD IS THE WAY AND IF YOU TRUST THE LORD EVERYTHING WILL BE ALLRIGHT.
TestimonyI love you lord, He is my only best friend in the world that every time I need her He is always at my side, so thank you very God to always supporting me. He is only man that you trust forever and ever.
Testimonywhat i am about to write is may be very disturbing to some. but i feel that i should let everyone know what i had to experience in my life with Jesus. i will start by saying that, unlike my mother, i was not always a perfect christain. mumsy used to go to church every sunday. and i would "dread" going with her. by the age of 12, when i was dragged to church on yet another sunday, i was doing drugs and drinking alcohol in the bathroom of my sunday school class. let me say that satan had a hold of my life and was using me like a puppet on a very thin thread. i began spending my time fantasizing about having sex with satan while i was actually being raped by my friends father (who was never convicted of rape due the lack of evidence). i was emotionally and and mentally unstable, and demons constantly persuaded me to do things. i was 15 years old, and i quit school, putting my mother behind bars. i stopped showing up for work. i no longer lived at home, but in an alley, in a box. in my free time, i would hold personal masses, burning cats and once even a human. people avoided me at all costs, even police because i was crazy. sometimes i would speak, yet i could not control it for it wasn't me, my thoughts, or even my voice. i was posessed. at this point, i was 16. the scarriest part of this was one night, in late december, while waiting at the bus depot, i began speaking in tongues, flailing wildly on the floor. i kept saying different phrases, which i later learned came straight from hell. suddenly, i floated into the air, as if i were hanging on a cross. my wrists and ankles were bleeding through open wounds which seemed to come from nails of some sort. suddenly, i began to get raped by the devil. my privates were tearing under his immense pressure and huge genetalia. priests came, and i was told that i had been chosen to bear his child. then out of my torn genitals came a horrifying creature. baby satan. it looked like him, with red skin, horns, and a appearance that would make anyone who really loved God vomit continuously. it was awful, not only because it was a demon, but because it came from me. i snatched this horrible little baby out of the arms of the men. i ran. i ran and i ran and i ran. i put the tiny infant into a basket, placed it in the pond of central park and began to pray. i prayed to Jesus. i prayed to him to help me, i prayed for him to change my life. suddenly, a bright and beautiful light shone down onto me and my mutant child. i heard a voice. a voice so calming, i began crying. the voice told me that my tears would cleanse the baby, and also my soul. satan would leave me, and that he did. i woke up, baby in my arms, and the baby, was a baby Jesus. he was so beatiful, i wept. and i felt that Jesus wept with me. and i knew that i was saved. i then returned home, finding my mother, a cocaine addict. with my baby wraped in swanddling clothes, i lay him in a manger, and touched my mother on there forehead. she dropped the rolled bill she was snorting with, dropped the 30 pound bag she had, dropped to her knees, and prayed. she never snorted another ounce of cocaine again. Jesus told her what to do. she went to the police, turned herself in for fornication, and is now serving a christain life in the new york state penitentary for bisexual women. this is how Jesus saves lives. if it weren't for him, i would be laying in a gutter, devil baby standing on my body, laughing. my baby, whose name is Jesus Isreal Glockstein, is doing very well. as for Jesus, we are lovers. i hope to marry him, in heaven on that glorious day that i join him. i hope you have been able to learn form my testimony, and may Jesus be welcome in all your lives. Amen.
TestimonyI JUST WANT TO INCOURAGE MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS WHO LOVES JESUS CHRIST AND I THANK GOD EVERYDAY FOR SENDING JESUS TO THIS DYING WORLD. I WROTE A POEM TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL ABOUT THE LORD AND SAVIOR.... THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER.....THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER FOR BLESSING MY LIFE FOR MAKING ME UNDERSTAND THERE IS NO VICTORY IN STRIFE FOR LETTING ME SEE A BRAND NEW DAY FOR KEEPING MY ENEMIES AND SATAN AT BAY FOR LETTING ME HEAR THE BIRDS SING THEIR SONG FOR CONVICTING ME WHEN I DO WRONG THANK YOU MOST HIGH GOD, MOST POWERFUL KING FOR TAKING AWAY DEATH'S AWFUL STING THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER FOR ILLUMINATING MY PATH I NOW LIVE FOR PEACE AND I REBUKE MISUNDERSTANDINGS AND WRATH THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER FOR NOW I LIVE SAVE I HAVE A CROWN IN HEAVEN BECAUSE YOU WALKED OUT OF THE GRAVE GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERYONE WHO READ THIS SINCERLY, YOUR SISTER IN CHRIST
TestimonyGood Day, There is power in the blood of Jesus. I have been saved since March of 1998. I had made some wrong desicions in my life but all that has come to past and now I'm a new creation. Healed from depression, alcholic, mood-swings, attitude, short-tempered and always right and everybody wrong! I am not the same. God has done a great miricle in my life. I now share my experince to let you know that there is still a Living God and he is here to help you at all times. Now I see the light and I go out preaching Gods word to those that are in darkness. GOD IS GOOD! All The Time!
TestimonyI was an atheist, brought up in a "haunted house" filled with fear. I was reared with an alcoholic mother, a very distant angry father, and an alcoholic grandfather. A blind grandmother and a neurotic great aunt aided in rounding out this dysfunctional family along with a twin sister and other siblings at least 12 years our senior. After leaving home for school, i was told my boyfriend (age 13) had committed suicide. This was when i began to dwell on death...what did it mean...what is it.. The rest of my schooling seemed to be a waste of time...because i could not think of work, only of death. Because of surgery, i had to leave school early. For one year i went home to live with a drunken mother i hated, with a fear filled household and , in the end...decided to go into nursing. i pondered.....death....but received no answers...It was at this time i got into the occult. and things went downhill from there. Inside i wanted to die...I was a black hole i could not get out of. I took an overdose of drugs stolen from the hospital ward, cut arteries in my wrists and waved goodby to the world I awoke in pain and with stitches. i was not sure if i was really alive. They placed me in a room about 6x4 and i stayed there for several years. With 36 plus drugs a day, strapped in a straight jacket on occasion No window, no visitors, no furniture. just a mattress on the floor. no clothes on me...where was I. I did not know it then i was in a padded cell. After 17 months they moved me for short periods, to have treatments. they did not work. I hated life, feared everything, felt alone. There was no God... The doctors advised therapy that meant outside the grounds in a hospital. High security wing of a psychiatric hospital In other words..an asylum. On one occasion i managed to escape but was captured and returned. the consultant told me "Liesl Stop running away,you are here for life, the quicker you accept this the easier for us and the easier for you. This is now your home for life." I wanted to die Another time i escaped and got ; into the black market drug scene. became an addict ..My plan was to die from all these drugs. I escaped again to die, on the way went into a hall Heard a man say, *God can do anything absolutely anything He can heal the sick, Heal the mentally sick and set the drug addict free! I went to leave the *God* bit made me angry,,, a lady at the door said *Jesus loves you! He knows what a mess you are in, he really cares, a new record was in my mind,I returned to the hospital. After many escape attempts those that succeed, and those that failed...some Christian visitors came to see me in hospital.. They laid hands on me and i was healed.... It was after that that i accepted jesus into my life... accepted him as Lord and Savior... Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. These are not mere words but reality. "Im My name they will drive out demons" mark 16, 15 Many don't accept this but Jesus would never tell us to do that if they did not exist. Jesus drove the demons from me. Jesus is the Victor. We have all power in Jesus and He does heal the sick today and set the captives free. he is wanting His people to believe His words. You are his people. You are the ones He calls. He demonstrates his power with the lost and the sick, the bound. Praise Him for the faith of those who came into my cell and simply asked Jesus to touch this girls mind. Praise Him..Amen. Copyright: Liesl ALexander Book, Video, CD Title FREE TO LIVE http://www.freetolive.org.uk/
TestimonyHi I am a Christain and God has helped through some really tough times. I was bulied from the age of 8-16 and my Gran died when I was 14. but God has always been with me and I gave Him my life completely on 25th december 1999 and he has filled me with his joy and love. i am now having counselling to help me leave it behind. i love him so much. he is so great and I have learnt to trust Him with all my heart. He gave me the courage to face each day at school and is with me now at college which is good and I have made friends as well/ he is always with me. Trust Him. he will never let you down.
TestimonyTO GOD BE THE GLORY!! I WOULD LIKE TO THANK GOD FOR ALL HE HAS DONE IN MY LIFE. GOD IS DOING (AND WILL COMPLETE) A GOOD WORK IN ME BY HIS GRACE I'M SUSTAINED. THROUGH ALL OF THE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS GOD HAS KEPT ME IN PERFECT PEACE...I HAVE FAILED SO MANY TEST BUT GOD WHISPERS HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT. I NO LONGER LEAN TO MY OWN UNDERSTANDING I HAVE DECIDED TO COMMIT MY WAY UNTO THE LORD AND HE HAS DIRECTED MY PATH WE SERVE A MIGHTY GOD AND I WILL CONTINUE TO TRUST THE LORD FOR HE IS MY ROCK AND MY FORTRESS THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOU HAVE KEPT ME TO GOD BE THE GLORY WITHOUT A TEST THERE ARE NO TESTIMONIES;;;STAY BLESSED BROTHERS AND SISTERS......
TestimonyLooking for Love in All the Wrong Places Before receiving Jesus, I believed that each one of us made our own way. In other words, anything was possible if we put our minds to it. I believed there was a God (and Heaven) but He wasn’t focused on what was happening to me personally. He was a distant God interested in the cosmic balance of the universe and I was too small to be even recognizable. What I did personally had no significant bearing on the activities of God. I grew up thinking that each of us controlled our own destinies and that the ends justified the means . I.E. , it didn’t matter what I did to get to my goals , just as long as I got there, and if my goals were ethical, I could make it to Heaven. So I worked very hard to be what the world would call a success. Growing up poor, I felt my way to happiness was through money & recognition, The place I found recognition, success & money, was in my work. But it wasn’t long (though I didn’t see it) I became addicted to what hard work brought me -- money, recognition & success. However it was short lived and I needed more & more. I became a workaholic. At age 41, when I thought everything was all falling into place, the opposite began to occur. My marriage was falling apart. My middle son ( very gifted) was going the wrong way. He had dropped out of school and was rebelling against any social rules or responsibilities. My efforts to counsel and discipline him, pushed him further away and he wanted nothing to do with me. By age 42, I was at the very bottom. My marriage was in the divorce courts, my son was unreachable, and all seemed lost and hopeless. All I worked for -- to be a good provider and good example for my family, to start a business and bring financial independence to our family -- was all being wiped out with the divorce and fighting. Everything I had worked for -- my wife, children, business, home, finances -- all were going up in smoke. On the weekend of October 31st, 1998, (my middle son’s 19th birthday), I was able to arrange a camping trip where I invited my wife and children to attend to celebrate my son‘s birthday -- and at the same time make a last attempt to reconcile my marriage. My son did not show up for his birthday and my wife said it was over. I had given up all hope and I couldn’t see a reason to hang on. That’s when I prayed out to God. I said, “God if you can hear me, I’m desperate. I’ve tried my best, but my best is not good enough. I see no reason for living. If there is, show me. Otherwise I say Good-bye to this world.” On November 1st 1998, (the next morning), a Sunday, my wife, youngest son and I attended the small church service they were having at the campground. The minister began talking about divorce and the effects it has and how God hates divorce. He then preached on how Jesus can forgive all of our sins and that he Loves each one of us individually and he wants us to spend eternity with him. At that time, my youngest son (who was the real victim of the whole mess) came over and sat on my lap and hugged me and said (like the song that was sung) “I Love You Daddy”. ......... That’s when I realized how selfish I had been. I saw my reason for living. I accepted the minister’s invitation to know Jesus. I prayed out to Jesus right there at my seat, “Jesus if you’ll forgive me for the mess I’ve made of things, I promise you, I’ll try again. But this time I’ll do it right!” It was then that I realized that Jesus is alive. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that he personally cared for me. My burdens were lifted; I was free, right there instantly. Jesus hugged me and welcomed me home. I knew that morning where my home was, I knew I could trust Him, and I’ve been running after him ever since. My addiction to work was gone. I no longer needed the recognition, success, or money the world had to offer. I no longer feared failure if I didn’t perform the way the world would like me to. I knew my life and strength was in Jesus. I knew that I could trust Jesus in all that I faced. He not only wanted me at my very worst, he promised great things. He promised me my marriage, family, finances, and security from future harm (verbal or otherwise). Since then... My wife accepted Jesus the following Jan. 1999. My marriage is better than it has ever been. My middle son is now in college pursuing an audio engineering degree. The business is going better than it was before, but with half the effort. There is peace and security in our home like I’ve never experienced. My wife no longer works outside the home. Our budget every month is being met on less than half what it was before. My life is now fuller than it ever was before. Life now has meaning and purpose. Seeing the Lord’s promises in my life has brought from a place of despair, to a place of hope, and now to a place of Faith. I now work diligently to be all the Lord wants me to be. Can you see the Hope I now experience? Bill S. 3/31/01
TestimonyTestimony Simon Matthews When it came to leaving Mauritius, I felt something deep down inside telling me to stay, I guess you could say it was the weather and the surroundings! But it was more than that. At the time I could not explain it, my parents weren't too impressed at my impulsiveness. The hotel was fully booked so after my family had left I approached one of the Taxi drivers and told him of my situation. He took me to look at couple of apartments, one of which was perfect. It over looked the Saint Geraint golf course close to the beach, sorted. I arranged a good price by bartering. Everything was falling into place real easy, no stress. After a few days of being there I was walking through Coco beach reception, when a member of staff, a guy called Malko approached me. We started chatting, just general stuff. I was holding a book that I had found in my apartment called ‘The Holy Blood and the Holy Grail‘ (It had caught my attention, as I’ve always been philosophical). While on my travels through the Third World I looked into many religions. It used to mystify me, how people lived a life of faith sometimes real sometimes false. I guess looking back I developed a humanistic understanding of god. I believed there was a god for the Buddha’s, Hindu's Rasta’s and so on. I guess you could say I was searching and you'd be right, I was. It was not just religion that fascinated me. Anything to do with the Supernatural. I didn't get involved in anything to heavy, but I spent a lot of time researching certain philosophers and myths. I knew that spiritualism (witchcraft and tarot card fortune-tellers) was not the right path, so I steered clear of that. Except on one occasion, whilst in Australia I got involved with a girl who was bang into that sought of thing so I ended up going to see some witch who was apparently going to tell me about my ‘previous life’?! It was a mad experience, she laid her hands on mine and started telling me a load of 'bull" basically. One thing was alarming though, I was aware of this incredible aching in my arms, as if she was transferring something into me, I told my girlfriend after and she told me not to worry so I just forgot about it. Anyway, getting back to the book, it caught this guy’s eye and he asked me if I was a Christian. I told him that I used to be but wasn‘t at that time. This must have sounded a little strange. I explained that when I was 18 I had a brief experience of the Christian faith, it lasted only a 3-4 months. I told him how a friend of mine, a Born Again Christian had developed a Brain tumour and was about to go into Surgery. All the odds were stacked against him, he only had a one in five chance of coming out of the operation alive. The night before his surgery I went up to see him with my girlfriend and her father. At the time I used to put the thought of death to the back of my mind, it used to scare me, so as you can imagine I found it very difficult to say the right thing. If you had looked down on the situation you would of thought I was having the op and he was coming to visit me. He was acting as if tomorrow was just another day. This made me feel very uncomfortable, I could not believe why he was so relaxed and blasé about the whole thing, it was as if he had an assurance that everything would be OK a hidden agenda that oozed a confidence which I could not explain. I came to a point where I had to ask him how he could be so laid back in the face of death? Very calmly and composed he said “ I know that if I’m to die then I will be with the Lord, and if everything goes well I’ll be down the pub with you next week” I stood in awe of what I had just heard, it was not the words that captivated me but the actions behind them. I saw something in him that I did not have, and at 18 I was very sure of myself a ‘Cocky little so and so‘ you could say. I thought I had it all together, well that illusion had just been shattered. I came out of the hospital and shared with my girlfriend’s father that I didn’t know much about Christianity, but I wanted that same assurance, that depth of faith and courage that I had just seen in Bruce. On the journey home he told me the basics about Jesus and how he died for our sins, and that through him, is the only way to the father (God). I was in 100% agreement that I was a ‘sinner’ that wasn’t the issue. After arriving back at my girlfriend’s house we sat down and her Dad started to pray. I repented of all my sins and asked for forgiveness, although my eyes where tightly shut it was if I was standing in direct sunlight. My whole body warmed leaving me with a sense of inner peace. From that night I changed my lifestyle completely although it did not last for very long. My zeal was very evident in the beginning, but like it says in the Bible “zeal without knowledge leads to destruction” and unfortunately this was to be the case! When my enthusiasm had fizzled out my faith was to be tested, and it proved to be built on shallow sandy ground, which was soon washed away. Anyway back to Malko (the man in the hotel), what he said next freaked me out, it was something like “My spirit is telling me that I have to give you a book, which I have at home, but I will bring it in for you" I was like the geezer's tripping! “My spirit is telling me“, I’ll have what your Smoking mate! I thought. Obviously I didn't share my thoughts at the time. I thought I’d give it a go anyway, just out of curiosity. The next day, there it was waiting for me in reception. ‘How to Heal the Sick’ by Charles & Francis Hunter. I was captured by the title straight away. I had read stuff about supernatural healings before so I was in it like a shot. It was written by a couple of American Evangelists who had this amazing gift in healing. After reading a dozen or so testimonies I had to take a breather, some of it was hard to digest. They were saying outrageous things for example; legs growing out, blind people being healed, men and women being delivered of evil spirits. It was fascinating. Although I found it really hard to believe. I was half way through it when I came across a small sentence, which spoke to me personally, it was an amazing experience, just a simple sentence that seemed to clarify so many unanswered questions. Due to my motorbike accident my football career was ended very dramatically. This ‘screwed me up’ big time. I developed an attitude thinking ‘God you blessed me by giving me a real gifting in football skills and I get on a motor bike once and you take it all away, what are you like?’ I had a chip on my shoulder about this big time, which I didn't share with anyone. The bitterness was like an illness to me, worse than any physical illness I had suffered through the accident and I carried it with me for 11 years. As a way of escaping from the reality of it, I got involved in drugs. I used them to blot out the past, until I straightened up that is. Looking back I can see I was in a vicious circle of despair. The more I smoked the more it took me to get into that place of escapism. Then I turned to pills, which led to the white stuff and so on, (no needles thank God). On the surface I was ok but underneath I was fighting with the past. Anyway, back to this sentence: "We believe all sickness and accidents misfortune comes from the Devil, but God can turn this around and make it the biggest miracle of your life” I know this might sound strange to you but, there I was sitting on a deserted beach all by myself, and felt an amazing sense of peace and clarity about what I had just read. It was as if God was speaking to me personally. It sounds ‘trippy’ hey! And no I wasn't smoking any of the local stuff. I carried on reading, engrossed in what I it said. I came to a chapter where this couple shared that after being baptised in the Holy Spirit, and being given the gift of speaking in Tongues, they saw their ministry grow hugely. Instead of one out of a hundred people being healed, the odds went up by 25%. I started reflecting back to when I went through my so-called Christian experience. I wasn’t baptised in the Spirit, I never got the gift of speaking in Tongues, and I was like ‘I want some of that!’ I wanted to know more. They spoke a lot about Jesus, and how he died for our sins, and through his sufferings people can be healed, and delivered of evil spirits (and so on). This was a little bit heavy for me at the time, so I didn't analyse it too much. I was just left feeling real keen to speak to the guy who had given me the book. The next day I went back to the hotel and told the guy what had happened and how I felt, he advised me to go share it with his Pastor. That afternoon we went to his house. I shared my past with him not holding back anything. I think he was taken back by my honesty. I told him that I felt as if God was calling me, (due to the way in which I had ended up staying, and the ‘coincidences’ that had followed). He asked me a few questions about my past, which I said I had regretted. We went into prayer shortly after. This was when the adventure begun, his whole family were present (and Malko also). I said a short prayer from my heart asking Jesus to come into my life and forgive me for my sins. I was not sure what was coming next. They all started speaking in a really strange language "Tongues" they called it, after about 5-10 minutes the room we were sitting in filled with an amazing presence that words cannot express, all of a sudden my mouth started to feel really strange, and I started to speak in a weird language, my tongue was moving at a rate that I had previously not experienced. This went on for what seemed like ages, but was only a short time. When I opened my eyes there was a tranquillity that in a way was unsettling. “What happened?” I asked “that was mad“ That is the Holy Spirit, you've been filled with the Spirit he said. Now we must go to the ocean and baptise you in water. During the three and a half months that I was there, a huge transformation begun. I went to church on every occasion, the Pastor’s ministry was in healing and Deliverance both of which I needed. I knew my leg needed healing but and I wasn’t even aware of the evil spirits. Due to the past, I had opened many doors for them to come in, the incident with the fortune-teller was, I know, one these occasions. In total I was delivered of seven demons (three violent). I manifested on four occasions. It took over six men to hold me down. I went absolutely berserk. On one occasion I tried getting to the Pastor, I wanted to kill him big time, but there was an invisible force around him preventing me from getting to him. After the Spirit had gone I was left unable to speak and even stand up by myself I was ‘drunk’ in the Holy Spirit, ‘drunk’ being the operative word. In the spiritual I had just gone through open-heart surgery, well that's what it felt like. As for my leg well, you’re not going to believe it! After finishing that book I spoke of I was filled with faith and asked my friend to pray that it would grow back to its original length. It was mad, I had my eyes shut and sitting on a chair. The guy prayed, and asked in the name of Jesus for it to grow, and it did. It felt as if something was stretching my leg like a piece of elastic. I stood up and started walking round the room like a 2-year-old. I couldn't believe what had just happened, it freaked me out, as if enough hadn't already happened. Since I've been home I got it checked out by my doctor who measured both legs and admitted begrudgingly that they are the same lengths. The most incredible thing amongst everything else that happened to me occurred one night shortly before I came home. I was sitting in my apartment just finishing my dinner. The room filled with a real coldness, eerie to say the least. After going through so much Demonic activity I was spiritually aware that it was not of God. I started to pray, but my mind was filling with negative thoughts. Thoughts that I had been brain washed, that I had lost the plot, that when I got home they would put me in a nut house, it got really intense. All the lows and comedowns that I suffered through the drugs did not compare with how vulnerable I felt, it was full on. I would say that I am strong-minded but the attack that I was under was far stronger than anything that I had previously experienced. It got to a stage where a voice in my head was telling me to top myself, do it now right now it was saying not in a minute right now. My hand was reaching out for the carving knife that was on the table, I had to battle real hard to stop myself. I managed to get to the phone and speak to my Pastor I told him what was happening, he told me to come round immediately. I rushed out and cycled to his home. When I got there he was preaching to a group of mainly old ladies that had converted from Hinduism into Christianity. I sat and waited for what seemed like ages .The heaviness seemed to be getting worse, I was close to walking out when he called me forward. Close your eyes and lift up your hands he said. Everyone gathered round and started to pray. The pastor placed his hand on my head, as he did this my legs turned to stone and I was flat on my back almost instantly. It felt like I had been cut in half. Whilst lying there, the heaviness turned to lightness and my body felt like it was levitating. I was conscious of what was going on around me in my flesh, but my Spirit was in a different realm. The feeling was how we conceive heaven to be I guess. Everyone had stopped praying and were passing around the teas and coffees I didn't want to open my eyes for I was scared the feeling was going to go. Eventually I opened my eyes, and was helped to my feet by a couple of old ladies. I sat down opposite them barely able to lift my chin of my chest. I gazed at them both, the feeling certainly hadn't gone in fact the opposite. As I looked at them I was seeing them the way God saw them. Here where two old Indian ladies in their eighties, who's faces bore the marks of many hard days spent working in the fields, it was evident through there appearance that life had been a struggle. But God showed me something that was inspiring. They looked so beautiful the character in their faces, each wrinkle told a story, like a work of art. I had never seen such beauty in someone before. The pastor approached me, “how do you feel?” he asked. I can’t explain I told him in low voice. No words would have done the feeling justice. What I was experiencing was beyond my understanding. The buzz's I used to get out of life- sex drugs & popularity etc. could not compare with what I had just experienced. The pastor just told me to go home and read a verse in the Bible. As I stepped out of the doorway, I became aware that I couldn't feel me feet on the ground. I started to panic, I thought I'd died and was already in Heaven. I was pinching myself to make sure I was still in reality. My pastor assured me I was still alive, we had a little laugh and I went on my way. Wow! As I got to the end of the street, bang, I was hit by nature, the sun had just gone down and the sky was a mass of colours. The road had trees either side, which led all the way down as far as I could see. I stood in awe of what was before me, how could I have gone through so much of my life and missed all this. You know sometimes when you have a photo of yourself and you see yourself in a different light, well that is how I was seeing nature. The miracles did not stop there. Every morning I used to sit on my balcony and watch the sun come up over the sea, praising God for the fresh revelation he was giving me. One morning whilst soaking up God’s presence, a local guy strolled passed. He had passed me many times unaware of my, sometimes, loud worship. This particular morning after seeing him I was filled with a deep sorrow. I felt God wanted me to pray for him, I kept it short and prayed that I would get an opportunity to speak with him, and share what I had experienced. I felt at the time I was taking a shot in the dark, shortly after I found myself relating with my friend Malko, (the one who acted in faith when giving me the book). About a week or so later, whilst waiting for a taxi at the end of the road I got a tap on the shoulder, it was him. I took the opportunity to show off my recently learnt Creole by wishing him a good morning, followed by asking him his name. To my shock he answered me with groans and sign language, everything just fell into place, the reason I had been prompted to pray for him. It was divine the way we communicated with each other, in the space of five minutes the Holy Spirit took over our silent conversation. Through certain gestures, sign language and the help of a pen and paper we communicated extremely well. I found out his name was Binda and that he was 31 years old and married with two children. I showed him my Bible, and I managed to tell him that I was a Christian and that I believed Jesus wanted to heal him of his deaf mute condition. I gestured that if he were to come to Church in three days, (which would be on Sunday), we could pray for him and he would be healed. To my amazement a big smile came upon his face and he agreed to meet me at the same place on Sunday morning. Just as this was agreed a taxi approached which prompted him to jump out into the middle of the road and with a waving of his arms the taxi came to a halt. We bid each other farewell and I got in the cab. As I sat there on my journey to the town I started to reflect on what had just happened, God had just done something in the space of five minutes that I thought would not have been impossible to do full stop. I was left feeling a little numb. Over the next few days I prayed and interceded that God would set him free at every given moment. I found out from the people I was staying with that he had been born that way, and that he came from a Hindu family, who were a little sceptical about him turning up for obvious reasons. This made me pray even more. I was sure that God had burdened me that morning and was 99% sure he was going to turn up. It was the 1% that was bothering me. Whilst praying, it came to mind that he may turn up and we would pray for him and nothing would happen, and that he wouldn’t be healed. My faith level dropped automatically. My child like faith was under attack. All the ‘what ifs?’ and ‘maybes’ kicked in. I hadn’t even contemplated these possibilities. I reflected back to the book that I had read (the one Malko) had given me. All those amazing testimonies of how people had been set free of cancers and deafness in the name of Jesus built my faith level back up almost as quick as it was taken away. Although the negative possibilities were left in the back of my mind. I shared my doubts with Malko who encouraged me in Scripture Hebrews13v8 “Jesus is the same yesterday, today and for ever” The Sunday morning came, and I made my way down road to our meeting place. To my delight he was there, dressed in his Sunday best, to see him waiting there with a look of expectancy on his face blessed me massively. “Thank you Lord” I said to myself. The joy I experienced that morning was awesome. Words cannot express the euphoria that I was experiencing deep within my soul. Streams of tears flowed down my cheeks at a rate that I had not previously experienced. The time came at the end of the meeting when the Pastor called us to the front and all the elders gathered around. I placed my hands on his ears and the Pastor laid his hands on his head, and we all began to pray. The Pastor rebuked the deaf Spirit in the name of Jesus and commanded it to leave, as he was doing this Binda fell to the floor groaning and writhing around, this went on for only a short time. Then Binda was helped to his feet. As he gathered himself his head lifted and a look of shock came across his face. At first I became concerned for him. He looked very uncomfortable. The Pastor made him close his eyes whilst he stood behind him and clapped his hands next to both his ears, his eyes opened and his face just lit up I cannot explain in words the expression that came upon his face, he just started nodding his head acknowledging that he could hear, you can imagine living for 31 years in total silence then bang being healed by God. I think I was just as shocked as him, I just started praising God for what he had just done feeling so blessed that he had involved me in such an amazing way. It was later confirmed that although Binda could hear, only 30% of his hearing was restored to him. A friend from church and I went home with Binda to explain what had just happened to his family. I thought it would be very challenging for them since they were Hindu. Although I could not understand what was being said I read between the lines that they were not happy with him coming along to Church. When his Children found out that he could hear they began to shout into his ears with much excitement. This blessed me hugely. Binda just sat there nodding his head violently with a huge grin on his face. His son ran off to the house and came back with some firecrackers which he went on to light and throw up in the air. It was a great sight to see. Binda started dancing around in circles jumping up and down, expressing his excitement with loud shrieks. This encouraged the children no end, and they joined him in his skipping around. I left him with my Walkman, which he had at full blast on nearly every occasion that I met with him there after. He continued to come to Church every Sunday until I left. As for his voice, well I believe he had been healed but he was just like a baby and needed to be taught how to speak. I tried to find out about taking him to a speech therapist but being a Third World country they did not have that facility. I was so blessed by our meeting, and believe that it was a divine appointment, which changed Binda’s life and certainly impacted mine! It’s nearly 2 years on now since I gave my life to Christ and my Love for him is increasing on a daily basis. Since being home my life has been turned upside down. The addictions that I had with drugs and crime have been broken, the desire to go back to that lifestyle has no appeal to me at all. I have found something so precious, that my life will never be the same again. My friends and family were very sceptical in the beginning and believed that it was just a phase that I was going through, but time has proved them wrong. My friends now refer to the old Simon as B.C, which makes me chuckle. One of my Father’s comments was that he did not recognise me as his own son. This turn around in my life has only been possible by the Grace of God. Nothing of my own will could have stopped me from slipping down the path that life was taking me. I have been left with a strong burden upon my shoulders to tell and share the Love of Christ with as many people as possible. I look into the World and see so much hardship and sadness through drugs and poverty, lust and envy, so much bitterness and anger, many peoples are walking around with milestones around their necks fully laden and burdened by the pressures of this world. Jesus said, “come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” I can testify to these verses. What he said is so true. Nothing can compare with the assurance that comes with having god in my life! I thank him daily for blessing me with the free gift of Salvation that comes through the Lord Jesus Christ, who died and rose again so that I may go free and be saved. I have come to realize that the difference between all other faiths and True Christianity is this that other ‘religions’ focus on the external i.e. offerings, clothing, religious rituals, incantations etc. These rituals produce in you an attitude of works, if I don’t do that, this might happen and a sense of earning your way into the next realm. This is bondage, in its finest form, leaving you under a curse of never being able to do enough. Whereas Christianity deals with the internal, being you. Through the Grace of God my life has been a testimony unto this in the past two years. Grace being the objective word, not by works on my part but by the death and resurrection of his Son. I do not like to term myself as religious for this indicates the above, rituals being pious, but having a divine relationship with God through his Holy Spirit. Many times in the last 2 years I have reflected on how much I have changed. At times it scares me the distance that I have come in such a short time. I still have many weaknesses and character faults, but I now trust in the one and only God who brought me out of darkness and into the light. The God who continues to mould me into the image of his Son the Lord Jesus Christ. It is in this that I rejoice.
TestimonyI was an atheist, brought up in a "haunted house" filled with fear. I was reared with an alcoholic mother, a very distant angry father, and an alcoholic grandfather. A blind grandmother and a neurotic great aunt aided in rounding out this dysfunctional family along with a twin sister and other siblings at least 12 years our senior. After leaving home for school, i was told my boyfriend (age 13) had committed suicide. This was when i began to dwell on death...what did it mean...what is it.. The rest of my schooling seemed to be a waste of time...because i could not think of work, only of death. Because of surgery, i had to leave school early. For one year i went home to live with a drunken mother i hated, with a fear filled household and , in the end...decided to go into nursing. i pondered.....death....but received no answers...It was at this time i got into the occult. and things went downhill from there. Inside i wanted to die...I was a black hole i could not get out of.
I took an overdose of drugs stolen from the hospital ward, cut arteries in my wrists and waved goodby to the world I awoke in pain and with stitches. i was not sure if i was really alive. They placed me in a room about 6x4 and i stayed there for several years. With 36 plus drugs a day, strapped in a straight jacket on occasion No window, no visitors, no furniture. just a mattress on the floor. no clothes on me...where was I. I did not know it then i was in a padded cell. After 17 months they moved me for short periods, to have treatments. they did not work. I hated life, feared everything, felt alone. There was no God... The doctors advised therapy that meant outside the grounds in a hospital. High security wing of a psychiatric hospital In other words..an asylum. On one occasion i managed to escape but was captured and returned. the consultant told me "Liesl Stop running away,you are here for life, the quicker you accept this the easier for us and the easier for you. This is now your home for life." I wanted to die Another time i escaped and got ; into the black market drug scene. became an addict ..My plan was to die from all these drugs. I escaped again to die, on the way went into a hall Heard a man say, *God can do anything absolutely anything He can heal the sick, Heal the mentally sick and set the drug addict free! I went to leave the *God* bit made me angry,,, a lady at the door said *Jesus loves you! He knows what a mess you are in, he really cares, a new record was in my mind,I returned to the hospital. After many escape attempts those that succeed, and those that failed...some Christian visitors came to see me in hospital.. They laid hands on me and i was healed.... It was after that that i accepted jesus into my life... accepted him as Lord and Savior... Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. These are not mere words but reality. "Im My name they will drive out demons" mark 16, 15 Many don't accept this but Jesus would never tell us to do that if they did not exist. Jesus drove the demons from me. Jesus is the Victor. We have all power in Jesus and He does heal the sick today and set the captives free. he is wanting His people to believe His words. You are his people. You are the ones He calls. He demonstrates his power with the lost and the sick, the bound. Praise Him for the faith of those who came into my cell and simply asked Jesus to touch this girls mind. Praise Him..Amen. http://www.free2live.org.uk
TestimonyI was an atheist, brought up in a "haunted house" filled with fear. I was reared with an alcoholic mother, a very distant angry father, and an alcoholic grandfather. A blind grandmother and a neurotic great aunt aided in rounding out this dysfunctional family along with a twin sister and other siblings at least 12 years our senior. After leaving home for school, i was told my boyfriend (age 13) had committed suicide. This was when i began to dwell on death...what did it mean...what is it.. The rest of my schooling seemed to be a waste of time...because i could not think of work, only of death. Because of surgery, i had to leave school early. For one year i went home to live with a drunken mother i hated, with a fear filled household and , in the end...decided to go into nursing. i pondered.....death....but received no answers...It was at this time i got into the occult. and things went downhill from there. Inside i wanted to die...I was a black hole i could not get out of.
I took an overdose of drugs stolen from the hospital ward, cut arteries in my wrists and waved goodby to the world I awoke in pain and with stitches. i was not sure if i was really alive. They placed me in a room about 6x4 and i stayed there for several years. With 36 plus drugs a day, strapped in a straight jacket on occasion No window, no visitors, no furniture. just a mattress on the floor. no clothes on me...where was I. I did not know it then i was in a padded cell. After 17 months they moved me for short periods, to have treatments. they did not work. I hated life, feared everything, felt alone. There was no God... The doctors advised therapy that meant outside the grounds in a hospital.High security wing of a psychiatric hospital In other words..an asylum. On one occasion i managed to escape but was captured and returned. the consultant told me "Liesl Stop running away,you are here for life, the quicker you accept this the easier for us and the easier for you. This is now your home for life." I wanted to die Another time i escaped and got ;into the black market drug scene. became an addict ..My plan was to die from all these drugs.I escaped again to die, on the way went into a hall Heard a man say, *God can do anything absolutely anything He can heal the sick, Heal the mentally sick and set the drug addict free! I went to leave the *God* bit made me angry,,, a lady at the door said *Jesus loves you! He knows what a mess you are in, he really cares, a new record was in my mind,I returned to the hospital.After many escape attempts those that succeed, and those that failed...some Christian visitors came to see me in hospital.. They laid hands on me and i was healed....It was after that that i accepted jesus into my life... accepted him as Lord and Savior...Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. These are not mere words but reality.
"Im My name they will drive out demons" mark 16, 15 Many don't accept this but Jesus would never tell us to do that if they did not exist. Jesus drove the demons from me. Jesus is the Victor. We have all power in Jesus and He does heal the sick today and set the captives free. he is wanting His people to believe His words. You are his people. You are the ones He calls. He demonstrates his power with the lost and the sick, the bound. Praise Him for the faith of those who came into my cell and simply asked Jesus to touch this girls mind. Praise Him..Amen. http://www.free2live.org.uk
TestimonyWhat we think and do may not be right. Ask God to reveal the truth. We have only one chance in our life. So be serious about it. It all ends with our death or Christ’s Second Coming whichever is earlier. Once upon a time I was criticizing salvation. I was against baptism. Please read my testimony below. If you want to submit your life to Christ or facing any confusion for submission based upon this testimony, please contact me at livetestimony@yahoo.com ******************************************************************** I am Simon. From childhood I had the desire to know God. But too many religions really confused me to which God should I believe. Each religion claim truth in them. Because I was born in a Christian family, so I heard about Jesus. What about others who did not born in Christian family nor did not here about Christ? For them no salvation? These were all the confusion in my mind. Because I am born in a Christian family so I don’t wanted to believe Christ. I wanted to taste Jesus personally. I was an active member of the church. (That was only to get a good name, but had no personal relation with God) I had that emptiness in my soul. After my college education I moved to Mumbai in search of job. Later I developed my own business. God started blessing me. I became worldly. So many times God punished me. But I did not change. At last God catch me. In January 22nd, 1993 a pain started in my heart. I was admitted to hospital. I realized that if I die today definitely I would be lost. I cried with a sincere heart; if there is a God existing, heal me today. God, give me a chance to know you, your existence and to know the truth. I am miraculously healed! I got my life back. (God’s Holy Spirit is able to enter into each and every part of our blood cells). As per my commitment I Started searching God, other religions, the word surrender, the death of Jesus for our remission of sin, resurrection, eternal life etc., when I was searching to know God, so many doubts came to mind. I struggled almost for 3 months with confusion in mind. But Holy Spirit clarified all my doubts. In between God arranged so many mediators to clarify my doubts. By hearing Jesus name or birth in Christian family is not the answer for salvation or eternal life. There is no difference between others and you being Christian by birth. In this stage you are worldly like others. But anyone in spite of his religion, if root a relation with Christ that is the beginning. I started reading all religious books in search of thirst for God. But my soul is not satisfied. At last my search came to Bible. That was the real time when I sincerely started reading bible. There is a quote in proverbs. “Those who seek me will find me”. When I started reading the Gospel of St.john small tiny lights started twinkling in front of word of God. Definitely it was the work of Holy Spirit. Those experiences are lasting till today. Always I find these types of tiny lights in the form of stars move around me. It is a wonderful experience. I found great relief while reading bible. I felt like God is personally talking to me. Based upon the findings of the Bible, at last I decided to surrender my life to Jesus. I cried like a child, who lost his loving mother.“Jesus, come to my heart, forgive my sins, I believe you died for me”. I brought all my sins in front of Jesus and asked to forgive me. That day Jesus did not enter into my heart. The emptiness of my heart was not filled. I felt very sad. Again for few days I cried before Him and asked Him to come to my heart? At last Holy Spirit revealed to me the reason. Still dirt was there in my heart. I had enmity with 3 people and I had some documents kept secretly with me as a future evidence against one person with whom I had financial dealings. God’s Holy Spirit convinced me about this. I met all the 3 guys and reconciled with them. And I destroyed that secret document also. That night was a wonderful night in my life. Again I went back to Christ for surrender. I started crying before Lord. Tears started flowing into my cheeks continuously. I bawled like a baby. I cried like I’d never cried before in my life. I cried like a man whose heart has been broken and of course, that’s just what was happening. When I finish all I felt a sudden release of tension, and burden from my body. My body became light. I felt like sailing in the atmosphere. My life melted down and transformed into a new creation. Peace entered. With a great relief I went to sleep. Within a minute I became unconscious. I don’t know what was happening to me. My lips started uttering a new language. I heard the sound of heavy wind blowing into my room. A light came towards me and touched my forehead. Immediately I got up from my vision. Yes, my surrender was complete. I experienced the Holy Spirit entering into my soul. Really it was astonishing. Later I took baptism. Baptism is not only essential but it is also an outward expression of an internal change. Baptism should be after repentence and accepting Jesus as our Saviour.It is a commandment of God. Now I am not afraid of death as my foundation is strong and confirmed. I am trying my best to be holy. God has brought me here in Middle East to discipline my self. He taught me so many lessons with various incidents. Dear friend, just think where you will be if you die today. Is it possible to die and see? Thank God, Jesus is not yet come, and you are still alive. Take a decision right now. Today is the day of salvation. We don’t know what will happen tomorrow. Remember that our surrender should always be unconditional. Jesus will not enter into a heart if we keep something for us. Don’t keep condition to Christ to come to your heart. If you have any suggestions / clarification contact me at livetestimony@yahoo.com May God bless you. Yours in Christ Simon
TestimonyIT ALL HAPPEN WHEN MY COUISN HUSBAND HAD SEX WITH AT NINE YEARS OLD AND MY COUSINS ALMOST ALL DID ME IN I BECAME MAD AT THE WORLD AND DID NOT CARE ABOUT NO ONE BUT MYSELF AT 10 I WHIP A FULL GROWEN MAN AND FROM THERE ON I WAS A TOMBOY WITH BOY ALL THE TIME PLAYING, I WAS A GANGLEADER AT THE AGE OF 11 AND JAIL AT 16 AND PRISON AT 19 DOING 5 FIVE YEEAR FOR ROBBERY FOR 30 YEAR I DID DRUGE KILLED SLEEP WITH MAN AND WOMAN LOCKED UP IN AND OUT OF JAIL AND PRISON FOR 19 YEARS BUT ONE DAY I GOT SICK OF MY LIFE AND I CALLED ON THE NAME OF JESUS TO HELP ME OUT OF THIS HELL AND I HEARD A VIOCE CALL ME BY MY NAME AND A FORCE KICK ME OFF MY BED AND IT WAS THE LORD HIMSELF WAS SPEAKING TO ME . I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT NIGHT AND HOW MY LIFE HAVE CHANGE INTO HIM LOVE IS FORGIVING SOMEONE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG FRIST JESUS FORGIVEN ME AND I HAD TO DO THE SAME TO MYSELF AND NOW OTHER I DON'T THINK JUST OF MYSELF ANY MORE THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE IF WE LAY OUR LIFE DOWN FOR A FRIEND AND JESUS IS MY FRIEND AND HE IS MY ALL I CAN'T LIVE WITH OUT HIM IN MY LIFE ANY MORE I TALK AND I WALK AND I TELL THE WORLD OF HIS LOVE BECAUSE WE ARE ONE WITH THE FATHER GOD I LOVE MY FATHER WHO SENDED MY BROTHER TO GET ME AND HELP ME SO BROTHER AND SISTERS WE HAVE TO BE HELPERS TOWAND ONE ANOTHER AND STOP FRIGHTING BAOUT WHO IS WHAT AND WHO GOT THIS PRAY AND GOD WILL GIVE YOU FREELY THE SAME STOP TAKING ABOUT EACH OTHERS AND LIVE AND PEACEFUL LIFE WE DON'T KNOW WHAT DAY OUR LIFE WILL END NOW THERE IS WAR ON US JUST GET YOUR LIFE RIGHT GOD WORK OUT YOUR SOUL WITH HIM GAIATIANS 5:19 -- 22 TELLS US HOW WE CAN GOT READ OF THE WORKS OF THE DEVIL THE FLESH. AMEN I HOPE THIS WILL HELP SOMEONE ANYONE CAN EMAIL ME I HAVE NO FEAR BECAUSE I LIVE TO SEE GOD FACE TO FACE SOME DAY THAT MY JOY AND PEACE LOVE HAPPINESS FAITH THAT THAT DAY WILL COME ALL MY SINS WILL WASH AWAY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL
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TestimonyI was an atheist, brought up in a "haunted house" filled with fear. I was reared with an alcoholic mother, a very distant angry father, and an alcoholic grandfather. A blind grandmother and a neurotic great aunt aided in rounding out this dysfunctional family along with a twin sister and other siblings at least 12 years our senior. After leaving home for school, I was told my boyfriend (age 13) had committed suicide. This was when I began to dwell on death...what did it mean?...what is it?.. The rest of my schooling seemed to be a waste of time...because I could not think of work, only of death. Because of surgery, I had to leave school early. For one year I went home to live with a drunken mother whom I hated in a fear-filled household and, in the end, decided to go into nursing. But I continually pondered death....but received no answers...It was at this time that I got involved in the occult. So things went downhill from there. Inside I just wanted to die...I seemed to be a black hole with no way of escape! I took an overdose of drugs stolen from the hospital ward, cut arteries in my wrists and waved goodby to the world, but I awoke in pain and with stitches! Yet I was not truly sure if I was really alive. They placed me in a room about 6x4 and I stayed there for several years! I was given 36 plus drugs a day, and strapped in a straight jacket on occasions. No window, no visitors, no furniture. Just a mattress on the floor. No clothes on me either!...where was I? I did not know it then, but I was in a padded cell!! After 17 months they moved me for short periods, to have treatments. The treatments did not work. I hated life, feared everything, felt alone. There was no God... The doctors advised therapy which meant going outside the grounds into a high security wing of a psychiatric hospital... In other words, an asylum. On one occasion I managed to escape but was captured and returned. The consultant said to me, "Liesl! Stop running away, you are here for life, the quicker you accept this the easier for us and the easier for you. This is now your home for life." I just wanted to die. On one occasion I escaped and got into the black market drug scene and became an addict..My plan was to die from all these drugs. Later on, I escaped once again but still only wanted to die. On the way went into a hall, I heard a man say, "God can do anything, absolutely anything! He can heal the sick, heal the mentally sick and set the drug addict free!" The *God* bit made me angry...then I heard a lady say, "Jesus loves you! He knows what a mess you are in, He really cares." Now a new 'record' was in my mind. I returned to the hospital. Eventually, there were many escape attempts; some succeeded, and some failed. One day some Christian visitors came to see me in hospital.. they laid hands on me and I was healed....It was after that that I accepted Jesus into my life...accepting Him as Lord and Savior...Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. These are not mere words but reality: 'In My name they will drive out demons' (Mark 16:17) Many don't accept this but Jesus would never tell us to do that if demons do not exist! Jesus drove the demons from me, so I know it is true!! Jesus is the Victor. We have all power in Jesus and He does heal the sick today and set the captives free. He is wanting His people to believe His words. YOU are his people. You are the ones He calls. He demonstrates his power with the lost and the sick and the bound. Praise Him for the faith of those who came into my cell and simply asked Jesus to touch this girl's mind. Praise Him..Amen. Liesl Alexander. Free To Live Ministries Liesl@free2live.org.uk http://www.free2live.org.uk
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Testimonyi was raised in a catholic home. from the time i was a little girl i always felt very deeply about right and wrong and my conscience was hightened. the bad things that other kids did including my brother and sisters bothered me. as i got older i started to questions the catholic churche's doctrine like praying to statues and proclaiming that a man the pope was God's representative on earth. by 18 years old i left the church i moved out of my parents house and moved in with a young man whom i married a year later. at the time i did not know that i was living in sin. and i did not know that i was greatly sinning against God and my parents. i was not honoring my parents. my parents were not pleased but the gradually accepted my relationship. my husband was also raised in a home in the west indies that called on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. he had his own ideas about Christianity --all wrong. we both did not know the Truth, the Way and the LIfe. we were only going by what others told us. my husband became greatly influenced by a muslim person on his job. he then decided to convert to islam by this time we had two children. he didn't ask questions or get any grounded information. he then told me that "we were going to be a muslim family". we didn't really practice or pray together. I learned a few muslim prayer and some of the doctrines but for some reason my heart did not feel right. during the next few years my life moved along materially --i did not know that God by His Holy Spirit was putting loving, believing witnesses in my path. in the most loving way they shared the Gospel with me. i thank god that He gave me ears to listen. i did many bad things during this time in my life. my husband and iwere grwoing more and more apart. we wnet to parties and drank alcohol in the presence of our children. at the time i did not think that i was setting such a bad example for my children. because we did not have a relationship with the Living God and because we were not saved--my husband did things to hurt me and i did things to hurt him. In 1996 i gave birth to my third child. a wonderful man had been witnessing to me for about a month. he had such a gentle spirit. he gave me some books to read. in the fall of that year i presented my child to the Lord. i don't know why i did it--but God knew. my husband did not attend the presentation. now that i think back, i realize that Jesus was telling me I will be your Husband. as i'm writing this a flood of tears has come down my face. God is so Good to us. All He wants to do is Love Us and Be Our Best Friend. in november 2000 i really began searching again. i started going to different churches in my neighborhood. i was seeking something God knew what i needed. i attended a church that taught the Bible from 2/2000 until 8/2001. i then started going to another church. there were some things in both of these churches that God wanted me to see . I realize know that i was'nt going to understand by myself--only by the Holy Spirit. i am growing in the Word of God--Jesus is the Word, by His mercy and everlasing Love and Grace.Jesus told us that the Holy Spirit would lead us into all truth. I observe the Seventh Day Sabbath--The Lord's Day. i have had such a peace in my life since the Lord found me. We have to remember that we are not looking for Him. We are the lost sheep and He is Our Shepard. my children love observing the Sabbath. If there is any one out there who has had a similar experience to me and to everyone --the key is to trust God In the Most Perfect and Wonderful Name of Jesus Christ. We must Stay in His Word--He Keeps His Word--because He is the Word. Jesus is Comming Back Soon--We don't know when ALL THE SIGNS ARE BEFORE US. He told us to WATCH AND PRAY!
Testimonywas an atheist, brought up in a "haunted house" filled with fear. I was reared with an alcoholic mother, a very distant angry father, and an alcoholic grandfather. A blind grandmother and a neurotic great aunt aided in rounding out this dysfunctional family along with a twin sister and other siblings at least 12 years our senior. After leaving home for school, i was told my boyfriend (age 13) had committed suicide. This was when i began to dwell on death...what did it mean...what is it.. The rest of my schooling seemed to be a waste of time...because i could not think of work, only of death. Because of surgery, i had to leave school early. For one year i went home to live with a drunken mother i hated, with a fear filled household and , in the end...decided to go into nursing. i pondered.....death....but received no answers...It was at this time i got into the occult. and things went downhill from there. Inside i wanted to die...I was a black hole i could not get out of. I took an overdose of drugs stolen from the hospital ward, cut arteries in my wrists and waved goodby to the world I awoke in pain and with stitches. i was not sure if i was really alive. They placed me in a room about 6x4 and i stayed there for several years. With 36 plus drugs a day, strapped in a straight jacket on occasion No window, no visitors, no furniture. just a mattress on the floor. no clothes on me...where was I. I did not know it then i was in a padded cell. After 17 months they moved me for short periods, to have treatments. they did not work. I hated life, feared everything, felt alone. There was no God... The doctors advised therapy that meant outside the grounds in a hospital. High security wing of a psychiatric hospital In other words..an asylum. On one occasion i managed to escape but was captured and returned. the consultant told me "Liesl Stop running away,you are here for life, the quicker you accept this the easier for us and the easier for you. This is now your home for life." I wanted to die Another time i escaped and got ; into the black market drug scene. became an addict ..My plan was to die from all these drugs. I escaped again to die, on the way went into a hall Heard a man say, *God can do anything absolutely anything He can heal the sick, Heal the mentally sick and set the drug addict free! I went to leave the *God* bit made me angry,,, a lady at the door said *Jesus loves you! He knows what a mess you are in, he really cares, a new record was in my mind,I returned to the hospital. After many escape attempts those that succeed, and those that failed...some Christian visitors came to see me in hospital.. They laid hands on me and i was healed.... It was after that that i accepted jesus into my life... accepted him as Lord and Savior... Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. These are not mere words but reality. "Im My name they will drive out demons" mark 16, 15 Many don't accept this but Jesus would never tell us to do that if they did not exist. Jesus drove the demons from me. Jesus is the Victor. We have all power in Jesus and He does heal the sick today and set the captives free. he is wanting His people to believe His words. You are his people. You are the ones He calls. He demonstrates his power with the lost and the sick, the bound. Praise Him for the faith of those who came into my cell and simply asked Jesus to touch this girls mind.
TestimonyI have tried to serve the Lord with my heart I have stuggled as a single parent of four with full custody I have been angry at the church and individuals for not loving their brother whom they have seen and so God says they cant love him. Now i have no hope I have sinned in many ways and now we have no car insurance and a van that is 15 years old that costs us on average 200 a month just to keep on the road. I quit going to church when my son was brought home by me at three days old the people were more interested in Gossip then they were in the truth How can I love people I hate how can i be happy when those with abundance wont share even a bit with someone that had no coping skills left? I am tired and we are now without insurance with the van and NO i dont drink and dont do drugs we work hard as a family and we heat with wood so dont tell me i am lazy or need to work harder I wish someone cared jesus help us
TestimonyDear Sir / madam, I am Pastor FELIX EBINUM, A deaf male from Nigeria in Africa and the owner of BRETHER FELLOWSHIP CHURCH FOR THE DEAF.We have place to worship God every sunday and wednesday but that place belongs to hearing Pastor and we just use it for short time. we have already bought the land but the money is not enough to buy many things as blocks, cements so on. we indeed need you to support us with financial to start building the church. We will be grateful if you can find your way to assist us. God bless you all Yours sincerely Pastor FELIX EBINUM
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TestimonyMy testimony is very short.I asked God to give undestanding,wisdom and knowledge and also take me places that i would never imagine.So right now i know God is working behind the scene to my life to redirect and change me and my wife life. So i do have faith and it is more than a mustard seed.
TestimonyBEFORE I BECAME A CHRISTIAN,MY LIFE WAS IN A MESS,AND THOUGH I WENT TO CHURCH ON AND OFF,IT NEVER MEANT MUCH TO ME REALLY,IT WAS JUST SOMEWHERE TO GO ON A SUNDAY,TO GET ME OUT OF THE HOUSE.I WAS ALWAYS GETTING INTO TROUBLE AT SCHOOL FOR ONE THING OR ANOTHER,AND I USED TO GIVE MY POOR PARENTS A REAL HARD TIME,FOR WHICH I NOW REGRET.I WAS ALWAYS JEALOUS AND RESENTFUL OF MY YOUNGER BROTHER BECAUSE I THOUGHT HE HAD ALL OF MY PARENTS TIME,LOVE AND ATTENTION,AND SO I USED TO BE REALLY CATTY,AND BITCHY AND HORRIBLE TOWARDS HIM,AND I USED TO BE REALLY AWFUL TOWARDS MY PARENTS AS WELL,AND I USED TO REALLY GIVE THEM A HARD TIME OF IT,I'D PLAY THEM UP,BE REALLY CHEEKY TOWARDS THEM,AND DISOBEDIENT AND DISRESPECTFUL,AND I'D NEVER DO ANYTHING EITHER TO HELP THEM AROUND THE HOUSE.I WAS REALLY,REALLY REBELLIOUS TOWARDS THEM AND ALL BECAUSE I FELT LEFT OUT,I FELT THEY LOVED MY BROTHER MORE THAN THEY DID ME.I FEEL AWFUL NOW WHEN I THINK BACKTO WHAT I PUT MY POOR PARENTS AND BROTHER THROUGH,I REALLY HAVE MY REGRETS ABOUT IT,AND I AM REALLY SORRY FOR THE WAY I WAS,BUT AT THE TIME I JUST COULDNT HELP IT,AND I JUST HOPE THAT THEY CAN FORGIVE ME FOR THE WAY I WAS.AS I GOT INTO MY MID TEENS I JOINED A YOUTH CLUB,AND I DID THE USAUL THINGS THAT TEENAGERS DO LIKE GOING TO DISCO'S,NIGHTCLUBS IN BIRMINGHAM,STAYING OUT LATE,PARTIES AND SO FORTH,AND I ALSO GOT INVOLVED WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE FROM THE LOCAL YOUTH CLUB THAT DABBLED WITH OUJA BOARDS,AND HELD SEANCES,CALLINGUP SPIRITS OF THE DEAD,AND AT THE TIME,I DID'NT KNOW THAT IT WAS WRONG TO PRACTICE THESE THINGS,SO I SAW NO HARM IN IT.I ALSO GOT INVOLVED WITH THINGS LIKE HAVING MY PALM READ AND MY FORTUNE TOLD,AND SPIRITISM,AND NEW AGE,AND ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE SUPERNATURAL.I ALSO WENT ALONG TO A SPIRITIST MEETING ONCE WHERE I MET WITH A MEDIUM THAT TOLD ME WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN IN MY LIFE OVER THE NEXT TEN YEARS OR SO,AND HE HAD A RECORDING MADE OF THE SITTING,BUT,HOWEVER,NONE OF IT CAME TRUE,WHAT HE SAID,SO I CARRIED ON AS USAUL,AND THEN I MET MY FUTURE HUSBAND THROUGH A SOCIAL GROUP FOR 18 TO 30 YEAR OLDS CALLED 18PLUS,WHICH I BELEIVE IS STILL EXISTS TODAY.WE GOT MARRIED IN 1976 AFTER A RATHER SHORT COURTSHIP,AND BEFORE WE HAD TIME TO REALLY GET TO KNOW ONE ANOTHER PROPERLY.WE SOON REALISED THAT THINGS WER'NT WORKING OUT VERY WELL FOR US,AND I DONT THINK WE WERE REALLY COMPATABLE TOGETHER,AS WE WERE ALWAYS ARGUING AND ROWING OVER THINGS,BUT WE STUCK IT OUT,AS WE WANTED TO MAKE A GO OF IT,AND THEN OUR SON CAME ALONG,AND WE WANTED TO STICK TOGETHER FOR HIS SAKE,AND SO ALL IN ALL WE WERE TOGETHER FOR 25 YEARS,BEFORE DECIDING THAT THINGS BETWEEN US WERE'NT GOING TO GET ANY BETTER,SO WE DECIDED TO GO OUR OWN SEPERATE WAYS AND TO SEEK A DIVORCE ON THE GROUNDS OF UNREASONABLE BEHAVIOUR.WE WERE ALSO AFRAID OF THE EFFECT IT WAS HAVING ON OUR SON WITH ALL THE ROWS AND ARGUMENTS,AND WE WERE'NT GETTING ON AT ALL SO WE DECIDED THAT IT WAS BEST THAT WE SPLIT UP AND CALL IT A DAY,PLUS IT WAS ALL STARTING TO HAVE AN EFFECT ON MY HEALTH AS I WAS SO STRESSED ALL THE TIME WITH WHAT WAS HAPPENING.ANYWAY,AS TIME WENT ON OUR HOUSE WAS SOLD AND I MOVED INTO A COUNCIL FLAT WITH MY SON,WHO WAS 16 BY THIS TIME.I THEN FOUND MYSELF A JOB,BUT I EVENTUALLY WAS FORCED TO HAVE TO GIVE IT UP,AS I JUST COULDNT COPE WITH IT ANY LONGER,AS I WAS SUFFERING WITH SEVERE STRESS AND DEPRESSION BY THIS TIME,AND WAS ALSO SUFFERING WITH MY NERVES,AND DECLINING PHYSICAL HEALTH,I THINK BROUGHT ON BY THE STRESS OF WHAT I'D BEEN THROUGH THROUGHOUT THE PAST,AND IN MY MARRIAGE,PLUS I WASNT FINDING LIFE EASY BEEN ON MY OWN WITH A YOUNG SON TO BRING UP,AND HAVING TO PAY ALL THE RENT AND BILLS MYSELF,BUT,I HASTEN TO ADD MY MARRIAGE WAS'NT ALL BAD,NOT ALL THE TIME,AS THERE WAS SOME GOOD TIMES AS WELL,BUT THEY BEGAN TO GET FEWER AND FEWER AS TIME WENT ON.SOON I BEGAN TO FEEL AT THE END OF MY TETHER WITH LIFE AND THOUGHT SURELY THERE MUST BE MORE TO LIFE THAN THIS,AND THATS WHEN I STARTED TO GET AN INTEREST IN CHRISTIANITY,AND BEGAN TO READ CHRISTIAN MAGAZINES AND BOOKS,AND STARTED TO LISTEN TO CHRISTIAN MUSIC,AND I STARTED TO ATTEND CHURCH,AND I TRIED MANY DIFFERENT CHRISTIAN DENOMINATIONS,BUT SOON BEGAN TO FEEL VERY MIXED UP AND CONFUSED BY DOING THIS AS I WAS GOING BACK AND FORTH TO DIFFERENT CHURCHES NOT KNOWING WHERE TO SETTLE,SO I WAS A BIT OF A SPIRITUAL BUTTERFLY YOU MIGHT SAY,BY GOING FROM ONE PLACE TO ANOTHER,AND NOT BEEN ABLE TO STAY AT ANY CHURCH FOR LONG.I THINK THAT PERHAPS I WAS SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING,BUT I DID'NT KNOW WHAT AT THE TIME,AND I FELT THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING THAT WAS MISSING IN MY LIFE.HOWEVER,I SOON STARTED TO WATCH CHRISTIAN TELEVISION ON SATELITE QUITE A LOT AND OVER TIME BEGAN TO REALISE WHAT A SINNER I WAS AND THAT I WAS HELL BOUND UNLESS I CONFESSED ALL MY SINS AND REPENTED AND TURNED FROM THEM,BUT FOR A WHILE I WAS STILL DID'NT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT UNTILL I BEGAN TO REALISE THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING STILL MISSING,IN THAT I NEEDED JESUS CHRIST IN MY LIFE.I'VE ALWAYS BELEIVED THERE WAS A GOD,BUT THAT WAS AS FAR AS IT WENT,AND I DID'NT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING REALLY ABOUT WHAT TRUE CHRISTIANITY WAS ALL ABOUT,AND I DID'NT KNOW THAT BEEN A PROPER CHRISTIAN MEANT GIVING UP YOUR OLD LIFE,AND YOUR SINFUL WAYS,REPENTING AND TURNING AWAY FROM ANYTHING THAT YOU KNOW TO BE WRONG IN YOUR LIFE AND ACCEPTING JESUS CHRIST INTO YOUR HEART AND LIFE AS YOUR PERSONAL LORD AND SAVIOUR,AND TO TOTALLY COMMIT YOUR LIFE OVER TO HIM,BUT I STILL FELT I DID'NT REALLY FEEL FULLY READY TO MAKE THAT TOTAL COMMIRMENT AND SO IT WENT ON FOR SOME TIME UNTILL I FELT REALLY FED UP WITH THE WAY LIFE WAS TREATING ME,AND I BEGAN TO THINK OF JESUS HANGING THERE ON THAT CROSS,GOING THROUGH ALL THAT SUFFERING FOR ME,BECAUSE HE LOVES ME,AND WANTS ME TO COME TO KNOW HIM,AND FORGIVE ME OF MY SINS,AND IT REALLY MADE ME THINK ABOUT MY LIFE AND THAT I WAS INDEED A SINNER IN NEED OF A SAVIOUR AND NEEDED FORGIVENESS AND TO HAVE A FRESH START,BUT STILL FOR A WHILE I DID'NT TAKE THINGS ANY FURTHER UNTILL EVENTUALLY I CAME TO A POINT WHERE I FELT THAT I DID'NT WANT TO END UP IN HELL WHEN I DIE,SO ONE EVENING WHILST I WAS WATCHING A BENNY HINN CRUSADE ON THE GOD CHANNEL,WHEN BENNY HINN ASKED IF ANYONE WANTED TO GO FORWARD AND CONFESS AND REPENT OF ALL THEIR SINS TO GOD,AND TO ASK FORGIVENESS SAYING THE SINNERS PRAYER,I DECIDED THAT I WAS REALLY WANTING TO DO THE SAME,SO I KNELT DOWN ON THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF THE TELEVISION AND REPEATED AFTER BENNY A REALLY LONG VERSION OF THE SINNERS PRAYER ASKING GODS FORGIVENESS FOR EVERYTHING I'D EVER DONE WRONG THROUGHOUT MY LIFE,IN MY THOUGHTS,WORDS AND DEEDS,AND ASKING JESUS CHRIST TO BE MY PERSONAL LORD AND SAVIOUR,AND RECEIVING HIM INTO MY LIFE BY FAITH,AND TRUST IN HIM TO SAVE ME AND CLEANSE ME OF ALL MY PAST SINS AND TO GIVE ME A BRAND NEW START AS A BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN.AS IT IS BY FAITH,AND BELEIVING IN JESUS,THAT WE ARE BORN AGAIN.SO ALL IN ALL MY CONVERSION WAS QUITE A LONG ONE WHICH HAPPENED OVER A PERIOD OF TIME.IT WAS THE BEST DECISION THAT I HAVE EVER MADE,TO BECOME A CHRISTIAN,AND IT MEANS A LOT TO ME,AND IT HAS MADE A DIFFERENCE TO ME IN THAT I DO FEEL AT PEACE WITH GOD AND THAT I'M NOW TOTALLY FORGIVEN FOR THE PAST,AND I DO FIND THAT NOW I CAN COPE WITH LIFE BETTER THAN I COULD BEFORE,AND THAT IF I SHOULD SLIP UP,WHICH WE ALL DO FROM TIME TO TIME,THEN IF I CONFESS MY SINS BEFORE GOD AND ASK HIS FORGIVENESS THEN HE'LL FORGIVE ME AS HE HAS PROMISED IN HIS WORD.I WONT PRETEND THE CHRISTIAN LIFE IS EASY,BECAUSE IT IS'NT,THERE'S ALWAYS LIFE'S UP'S AND DOWNS,AND DIFFERENT PROBLEMS THAT COMES YOUR WAY.BEEN A CHRISTIAN DOES'NT MAKE YOU EXEMPT FROM THESE THINGS,BUT YOU ARE BETTER ABLE TO COPE WITH THEM ALL AS NOW I HAVE MY SAVIOUR JESUS IN MY LIFE NOW TO HELP ME,AND HE HAS PROMISED NEVER TO LEAVE ME OR FORSAKE ME,AND I KNOW THAT ALL MY SINS ARE NOW FORGIVEN AND THAT I HAVE ETERNAL LIFE.I HAVE ACTUALLY STILL BEEN THROUGH SOME VERY TOUGH TIMES SINCE I BECAME A CHRISTIAN AND I'M SORRY TO SAY I DID CAUSE ME TO BACKSLIDE,AND START TO HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT I WAS STILL SAVED,BUT I'VE SINCE FOUND OUT THAT ONCE SAVED ALWAYS SAVED,PROVIDED THAT AS SOON AS YOU ARE AWARE THAT YOU HAVE SINNED IN ANY WAY YOU COME TO GOD AND REPENT AND SAY SORRY FOR FALLING INTO SIN AND ASK HIM TO FORGIVE YOU THROUGH JESUS,WHO DIED TO TAKE AWAY OUR SINS,AND ASK HIM TO FILL YOU WITH HIS HOLY SPIRIT AND HELP YOU TO KEEP AWAY FROM ANYTHING YOU KNOW TO BE WRONG.I WOULD CERTAINLY RECOMMEND THE CHRISTIAN LIFE TO YOU,BUT I FOUND IT DID LOSE ME A FEW FRIENDS WHEN THEY FOUND OUT I'D BECOME A CHRISTIAN AND THAT I COULD'NT NOW DO THE THINGS I USED TO DO,BUT I'M JUST SO GLAD I'VE FOUND JESUS,AND IF ANY OF YOU OUT THERE,WHEREVER YOU ARE IN THE WORLD ARE NOT YET A CHRISTIAN,THEN I'D LIKE TO ENCOURAGE YOU TO SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT IT,AND TO THINK ABOUT GOD'S LOVE FOR YOU,AND THAT HE CAME TO EARTH IN THE FLESH,IN THE BODILY FORM OF JESUS,AND DIED ON A CROSS FOR YOU,SO THAT ALL YOUR SIN'S CAN BE FORGIVEN AND WASHED AWAY AND YOU CAN BE GIVEN A NEW LIFE AS A BORN AGAIN CHRISTIAN,AND I JUST PRAISE GOD FOR SAVING ME, AND I CONFESS WITH MY MOUTH THAT ''JESUS IS LORD''AMEN!
TestimonyThese things are horrible and of course they should be freed from worldly pain.
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